Class Dialog

In a college dorm hall he cheats on his current girlfriend with his ex. No one knows but the two of them and the feelings that are still there will change their lives. People knew it was coming they just were not sure when, guess they all know now.

Him "So theres really something I need to talk to you about and its kind of hard."

Her "Umm... ok, whats up?"

Him "Well you remember how I told you a couple days ago that I had a new girlfriend?"

Her (rolls eyes) "Yeah?"

Him "Well I don't really love her and I'm so confused about what to do."

Her "Um I'm sorry, what?"

Him "You heard me I'm confused I don't love her, I'm still in love with you."

Her "Wow, really? I still love you too."

Him "Yeah but its more complicated than that."

Her "It's more complicated that that? Explain."

Him "It just is, I still need my space to think about what I want but I still love you and it's possible to get back with you."

Her "Really? O joy, I can't wait! But there's something I have to tell you."

Him " Um ok, whats that?"

Her "There's this one guy I've been spending a lot of time with."

Him "Oh really now? Care to explain?"

Her "I stayed with him a couple of night and I swear we haven't done anythin bad...."

TO BE CONTINUED.......

The Dr Seuss Tree

The tree with red branches coming out of it. Well its, umm, pretty interesting. I have never seen anything like this before. I do agress with a comment made by a fellow classmatee that it reminds her of a Dr. Seuss. It really does, all I can picture is the fish book with all the werid looking trees with the fish walking down the road because apparently fish have legs.

The monolog we did in class

Crystal's Monolog

"I can't believe how hard things are lately being at college away from my family and friends. I never thought that this semester would be this hard. This school and it's events leaves a sort of depressed feeling over me. And with all these different things going on in my life, who do I have to turn to. Right now my one main concern is a secret from everyone except the person who caused the concern. And I really can't talk to him about it because I know it hurts him greatly to think or talk about it. So I end up having to learn how to deal with it by myself, which causes stress. And with all my class work load and horse club I'm just starting to fall apart at the seams with no clue how to keep it together. I wish Nana was still here."

A Notebook Piece

She was the kind of girl who.....

loved her kitten
barrel raced
was lonely
suffered from heartbreak
threw out old memories
dressed up for nothing
needed someones touch
was lost in the world
didn't trust too many people
needed to be loved
loved her horses
had dreams
could be a bitch
hated drama
budgeted her money
kept all important things safe
needed her cell phone
didn;t like things she said
regreted a lot
lost her hero
went out with her girls
loved to go dancing

Freshman

Why do they find the need to get involved in other people lives? Im not really quite sure but it really sucks and I find it very high schoolish. It's like they feel its necessary to mess up people's lives because they are not happy with the one that they are living themselves. Well I think it is retarded and that they all just need to grow up!!!

Stupid People

Ok so I have come to the final conclusion that there are a lot of stupid people that go to this school and they are just not worth your time. Unfortunally for me I fell in love with one of these people and who knew he would turn out to be one of them? But yeah so here we go he has to try to make my life as miserable as possible now that we are no longer together... so revenge is a bitch. But yeah thats all I really have to say for now.

New Puppy

So my mom and I are getting my dad a new german shepherd puppy for a christmas present. I cannot wait to see the look on his face when he gets it. You see to make a long story short my dad had a german sheperd dog this summer but he was ill. He was diagnosed with megaesphaogus when he was a puppy and we saved him because the breeder was going to put him down. However we were told at the time that with good health care management that he would be fine and live a full life. Well that was up until July 4, 2008, he was three years old when he passed. This was the hardest thing that I have ever gone through with my dad. You see I work in a vet clinic and my dad knew Duke was getting sick again and needed to be taken in for some management care. So he called me the day before he died in tears from his work begging me to please take Duke into work with me later that day to try to save him. So I took him to work with me and we did the usual health care management checkup that we always did on him. Yuppers poor Duke had pneoumia again but with some IV fluids and some cough tablets there was no reason why he should not have pulled through..... or so we all thought. I found Duke dead the next morning when I went to give him his cough tablet with blood pouring out of his mouth. The only explanation for this is that the infection was so bad it worked its way up into his pulmonary artery and bursts it causing him to bleed to death both internally and out. But enough with the sad story we are getting a new puppy and hopefully all goes well for my dad with this one.

I really like this piece

Plenty Of Fish In The Sea

You were my catch of a lifetime, so I thought
We were both so jealous that we always fought,
We did love each other, as far as people could tell
But when we were alone we would always yell.

Our pond was vast yet it lacked in depth
If we hit another milestone it would scare you to death
Because there was another and I always had suspicions
You can't keep over your limit when you go fishin

You did have feelings this i do know
I always wondered why it didn't show
I waited for you to leave him all these years
Him back in your life, assured my fears

You were my first love, that will always flow
But you were too much and I needed to let you go
Heartache is tough, another catch is key
I'll just toss my line out, because there's plenty of fish in the sea


By: Chris Taylor

A really good song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G9wwvUjX9FA

Urgh

Ok so defintly got the email saying that we need to have thirty post on here and went oh shit I have ten less than what I need so guess I will be writing a lot on here. I guess I kind of just forgot about this blog with all the things that I have going on with my life. And being involved with things on campus and people telling me things that who knows whats true and whats not true. How am I supposed to know who to trust and who is really there for me? I dont know but this is all I really have time for right now because I have horse club things to do.

The Question

Some days I sit here and wonder what is really going on with my life. Along with that question comes a lot of other ones, like who really are my friends. You see I have a lot of people that call me their friends but when push comes to shove I have to wonder. There are so many times where I do something that makes one of them mad that I have to sit back and wonder if you were my true friend wouldn't you support me in every decision that I make? Questions that I may never really know the answer to. But I just don't understand why people who say they are your friends do not always support all the decisions you make in life.

Hard Times

So defintly am going through some hard times. Especially when we did my workshop and it was about me and I had just been left by that boyfriend, that I thought was so good to me. It's such a long story but there are my good moments that I am completely ok with the fact that we are no longer together and then there are the times that it still kills me. Even though I know his every flaw and everyway he treated me like shit there is still a part of me that cares about him even though I know longer want to. Im thinking its just because it is too soon since we have been seperated at least I am hoping so. And now I am trying to move on with my life but thats still hard too. I just am in a rough spot and am trying to be so strong but it just is so hard when I am alone and have time to think by myself.

Halloween

So I decided to go home for Halloween this year seems how my great grandma asked me to last year and I didn't. Instead I stayed at college and got wasted to the point of throwing up. That would of been the last Halloween I could of spent with my great grandma but instead I made a mistake to stay here. I lost my great grandma this summer so when my grandma asked me to go home this Halloween knowing she is sick I had to. I didn't think I would be able to bare it if anything happen this time. So I went home to get the news that my grandma would be going into surgery and if she didn't she would have a stroke. What wonderful news to hear after that was part of the reason my great grandma passed away. So yeah it kind of sucked but at least I know I did the right thing this time.

Entry #4 to class assignment

The Process

While doing this assignment I found myself wanting to change and twist each entry more than it was. I also found myself wanting to add more onto them but knowing that the piece did not have to be complete I just let them be. I found this assignment difficult for me because I was always questioning whether or not the reader would actually understand what I was writing because they were simply just writing in my notebook. I mean yes they made perfect sense to me buts thats because I wrote them and I know what was going through my head at the time while I was writing them. Whereas someone who is trying to read them might not fully understand them because they are not aware of what I was thinking while writing. I also found myself wanting to explain my writing while I was typing up my stories.

Entry #3 to class assignment

The Dark and Stormy Night

She was alone in her house waiting up for her husband. She sat in the bed with her cat trying to watch TV and trying not to think about what might be keeping him so late. Surely his work would be done by now and only a fool would go practice the rodeo on a night like tonight. As she sat there wondering, she could not help but hear the thunder that boomed right over the top of her. With every lightening blot she feared they would loose power. Finally the house went pitch dark, as she sat in bed still waiting for her husband. She thought she might go to sleep and that maybe just maybe it would help pass the time until he got home. Finally he came home at about 2am an woke her up. He told her he was sorry for keeping her worried and that he had gone out to make sure the horses were going to make it alright through the terrible storm. Finally her worries were put to rest, so she kissed him, said “good night”, and went back to sleep on the dark and stormy night.

Entry #2 to class assignment

My Free Write Story

A very lonely girl with no one to turn to. That is what Crystal had become. She had just lost her beloved great grandma and now the only thing to live for was her boyfriend and her barrel horse. But Crystal was confused, her boyfriend lived four hours away and there was no way she could ask him to come stay with her. For he had just been there when her great grandma passes to support her through the hardships of the process of recovering.
So Crystal spent a long and lonely summer hoping to try to get over what no longer was. But as the days went on it just got harder. The more responsibity she had to take care of with cleaning and closing her great grandma’s house. The house that she loved, the one she spent most of her childhood afternoons and summers in, it’s all gone now. Every last memory has been washed away.
As the summer continued to drag on, things got worse. Crystal’s beloved dog Duke passed away the day before her great grandma’s birthday. This was really hard on Crystal because her dad has asked her the day before Duke passed to save him. See Crystal worked in a vet clinic and had access to any treatment that her dog could possible need. So Crystal took Duke to work the day before, took x-rays and found out that the condition he had called megaesophas had caused him to have severe pneomia again. Now this was nothing anyone worried about because Duke has had this condition all his life and has been battling pneomia and there was no reason why he could not pull through this one too. Little did we all know until the next morning that the pneomia had reached his pulmonary artery and it was under so much pressure that it burst. This instilly killed Duke leaving him in Crystal’s mudroom in a pool of blood the next morning. Crystal found Duke like that when she woke up at six in the morning to give him a cough tablet to help with his coughing.
This is as far as I got with the story in my creative writing notebook.

Entry #1 to class assignment

My Household Item

The item in my house that means the most to me is my dinner table in the dinning room. My dinning room table means that most to me because it is where my family and I had Thursday night dinners, they were always with my great grandmother. Unfortunually these Thursday night dinners are just a fond memory now because she passed away this past June. It is so hard on me because I would give anything to be able to bring her back and have one last Thursday night dinner with her to make sure I got to say all the things that were left unsaid when she passed. My dinning room table is so meaningful to me only because it holds so many memories of my great grandmother. It’s just a shame that I cannot have anymore with her until I meet her at heaven’s gate on the day that I die. Someday I will be reunited with her and honestly that’s all I really want. She meant so much to me that I really don’t want to live this life without her anymore.

My poem for my art presentation

http://www.geocities.com/heathersrodeopage/barrelrace.html

My Weekend

Well I had a good weekend this weekend I went to stay with my boyfriend at his brothers apartment so we could get off campus and way from the drama for awhile. It was so great because his brother stayed in his girlfriends apartment so matt and I had his apartment all to ourselves. It was kind of nice to see what it would feel like living with him on our own. At the same time it was very relaxing and took me out of the deep upset phase that I had been in for awhile. But it sucks cuz the more time I spend on this campus today the more the feeling of being upset comes back. Im not sure why but it just does and its a horrible feeling. But yeah my weekend overall was good and now I am not looking forward to the midterms that are coming up this week.

How I feel

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vG9XfJxMY8A

So this video pretty much explains what has been going through my head lately. Which if you know me its not like me to be like this but this is my second year here at Canton and for some reason I am just not happy here this year. All I have been thinking about this last past weekend is how much I miss my house and how I want to just go back to working full time in the vet clinic and training my horse at night. This is completely opposite of how I thought I would feel this semster I thought I would be happy to get away from my house and on my own again because I just lost my great grandma this summer but its not. I think being here and actually having time to think about things is making me more depressed than what I was at home. I' m not sure but this is the only thing I could think of to write today.

My Video for my art presentation

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S_vByR8I-kU

People

Well have you ever had people that your friends try to warn you about and tell you that they are no good but no matter what you have to give them a chance anyways? Yeah well I keep learning the hard way to listen to your friends no matter what they are usually always right. I just dont get it the way people act sometimes. I mean we are in college and the way some people act you would never know it. But ok I'm done talking about stupid people and the moral of this blog is to listen to your friends they are usually right.

Excited

Well theres really not much to say about today other than I am really excited after such a stressful day. I can not wait to go home tomorrow after classes and run barrels Saturday in my barns competition. Its going to be so much fun!!!

Laura and Surge running barrels

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a_5aU6we4E4

Some Favorites

One word, that's all you said
Something in your voice called me, turned my head
Your smile, just captured me
You were in my future far as I could see
And I dont know how it happens, but it happens still
You asked me if I love you, if I always will

Well you had me from hello
I felt love start to grow
The moment that I looked into your eyes you won me
It was over from the start you completely stole my heart
And now you won't let go
I never even had a chance you know
You had me from hello

Inside I built a wall
So high around my heart, I thought I'd never fall
One touch, you brought it down
The bricks of my defenses scattered on the ground
And I swore to me I wasn't going to love again
The last time was the last time I'd let someone in

But you had me from helloI felt love start to grow
The moment that I looked into your eyes you won me
It was over from the start you completely stole my heart
And now you wont let go
I never even had a chance you know

You had me from hello
Thats all you said
Something in your voice calls me, turns my head
You had me from hello
You had me from hello
Girl, I've loved you from hello

This song is "You had me from hello" by Kenny Chesney
This is one of my favorite songs because it describes my relationship with my boyfriend and how things got started with us.

Hard day today

So I have had a hard day today. All I have done is sit here and think about the two phone calls that I am supposed to recieve that can both lead to horrible news. The one is from my mom about my horse... see my horse has been lame on her one front leg for awhile now and we dont know what is causing it but the vet is coming to look at her so I am hoping for the best but expecting the worst. The other phone call is from my boyfriend who is back up where he is from at the doctors getting some more tests done to see what is wrong with his back. The only bad thing is that these are the same signs that he had when he got a staff-infection and ended up in the hospital. So I am hoping that he will come back to college to me but I am expecting the worse which is to get a phone call saying that he is in the hospital again. That is the worse news I could possibly get right now because I have no idea how I will learn to deal with juggling classes and trying to go see him in a hospital that is two hours away.

I just have a very hard time dealing with all this stuff expecially seems how I just lost my great grandma this past summer and she was the only person that I could go and just sit there and talk to about anything for any amount of time. Her and I were very close and trying to deal with all the things have I am going through without her here is like having a piece of my life missing.

This summer and so far this semster at school has just been a rough time and I am just hanging on and hoping that it is going to get better.

Totally Forgot

So I totally forgot about this thing for this week. And I feel kind of bad because it is being graded. But I'm thinking it will be ok. So heres my explanation about why I forgot. Well between dealing with going home and being mad because my barrel competition got rain out to coming back to the dorms Saturday and dealing with all the drama I just totally forgot I had this thing as an assignment. OPPS!!

My Horse

Well I figured that seems how I have a picture of my horse and I on here and the name of my URL I would tell you a little about me and my horse. The horse in the picture in my Appendix named Cresents Plain Jane... well thats her registered name, her barn name is Crystal. She is about 10 years old and I have had her for about 2 years. She is my barrel horse and is my pride and joy. She is an awesome horse and I have no idea what I would do without her now that I have had her with me for so long. Her nickname is Crazy Crystal because she gets a little out of hand sometimes with her running but that is pretty much common in Appendix barrel horses, so its not that bad. But yeah thats mostly everything there is to know about my horse.